I'm a Christian...

I found this interesting poem in Sarah's blog and thus i'm gonna extract from her blog, which she extracted from another person's blog....

When i say..."I am a Christian"

I'm not shouting, "I'm clean living'."

I'm whispering, "I was lost,

Now I'm found and forgiven."

When I say..."I am a Christian"

I don't speak of this with pride.

I'm confessing that I stumble

and need Christ to be my guide.

When I say..."I am a Christian"

I'm not trying to be strong.

I'm professing that I'm weak

And I need His strength to carry on.

When I say..."I am a Christian"

I'm not claiming to be perfect,

My flaws are far too visible

But God believes I am worth it.

When I say..."I am a Christian"

I still feel the sting of pain.

I have my shar of heartaches

So I call upon His name.

When I say..."I am a Christian"

I'm not holier than thou,

I'm just a simple sinner

Who recieved God's good grace, somehow.

Ever since I was a kid, being in a typical christian family, i as send to Sunday School on Sundays to learn more about God. And everytime during those years in school I was always ask by my friends wat are you as in wat God do u believe, and I would never fail to say i'm a Christian for that is wat i was told that i am. And as the years goes by, I often stumble upon the question of whether am i projecting Jesus in me, since i claim i'm a Christian.

Now let me ask everyone who proclaim themselve as Christians, are you projecting Christ in You? Are you claiming yourself as Christian just because you accepted Him as your Saviour? Or is it cause you were born in a christian family that automatically makes you one?

Born into a family of Christians doesnt make you one by default, you gotta accept Him as you Saviour. And by accepting Him as your Saviour does give you the rite to call yourself a Christian, but are you projecting yourself as someone who has Christ living in you?! Wat is the point of calling urself a Christian and yet u do everything that is against the teaching?!!! You could just call yourself a free thinker and do those things. Calling yourself a Christian doesnt mean you can continue your life as usual with no change, living that same unhealthy life that u always have. There should be a change to be more like Him, Christ.

Once we have accepted Him as our Lord and Saviour, we got to change our ways of life. No more same old same old. But we got to learn and change. Dont it defeat the purpose of accepting Him and yet we continue to live a life of sin? I'm not here to judge anyone, i myself am working hard, praying hard, with lots of discipline to change my life of waste into one that can proclaim myself as Christian proudly.

For some of you who know me well and to those who dun...i was expose to many things when i was in my pimary years. Unhealthy stuff that is...I started learning to swear/ curse when i was in my standard 2 years...8 years old and i've already started learning to curse!!....and then i was firt exposed to pornography when i was 9 or 10...at the age of 12 i was asked whether i wan to smoke(and thank God for the good concious i have i didnt smoke)...can u imagine the amout of unhealthy things i was exposed to when i was a kid, the time where the mind just accepts things like a sponge. And those stuff that i've absorbed....kinda ruin the image of Jesus, since i was claiming all the way as a christian.

But as the years goes by and the Lord reveal Himself to me more that i started to change. I curse a lot lesser. If u know me when i was a kid...i curse in every sentence i said to my friends. But now i still curse but when i'm damn pissed(still working on this part) and pornography...that sure cause a whole lot of damage to me. For now...i would say i'm in control of not doing anything inrational/ wrong/ horrible....but i would rather get rid every single thought of not respecting girls out of my mind.

All it takes discipline to follow and obey wat i've been taught. If i'm gonna claim myself as a follower of Christ, i need to project Him in me. And to do that i need to be clean. No sign of any of those to be seen not only in public, but most importantly in God's all seeing eye. Now that God has once again given me a leadership role, the more important that i should get myself rite with God so much more.