Its has been a year since i posted something here, partly because I was posting at another site and the other part was that I'm just plain lazy. So why now back here?! Cause I miss this blog of mine type out the many posts that somewhat let me say whatever I want, some boring stuff, some nice songs, some laughable things, basically whatever I feel like sharing with the world. And of now it maybe something to share to everyone but personally not i just need this place for me myself to release all the things that has been on my mind...
first up i love walking in the rain...I went for a walk and it started to rain and it was great!! I've forgot how nice it was to walk under the rain. It bring backs memories of my school days where i practically walk everywhere everyday. And not only that it feels refreshing....the only reason that I've not been doing that for so long is that everyone grows old and some of us ie. me do get sick easily at times...i think the last time i walk in the rain was like 3 years ago.
The past month i would say has been a frustrating roller coaster ride with the hopeful then to the false hope cycle over and over again. At times I see I can turn the tide around and win the battle and the next few days more things reveal and back to square one where the battle seems so impossible. It makes me feel that i should just give up on what we had for 3 years. But every time i see that face of her's, I can't help it and not wanting to let her go. Worst part is that a guy is after her as well...hate guys like them...is this world so populated with guys that u need to go after another person's girl?! well another guy appearing makes things worst actually...now she somewhat like him cause he can praise her in all ways but i find that kinda like a tool to flirt with girls...sigh...Why does relationship needs to be so hard at times? Is it to strengthen us? to tear us apart? I really don't know at times. So frustrating!!!! Because of this I've not been sleeping and eating well...like literally!! sleeping at odd hours either too late or too early. I've lost appetite to eat at times...skipping meals or just eating less so less that a biscuit cam satisfy it. I really don't know what should i do now...sigh...
there is app on the phone called Line, its a chatting app and its kinda fun i mean with the sticker and so on with them having different expression...but at the moment not many people on my contact list is using that so its kinda bored there but at the bright side having less people to talk to give me more concentration on those who r using it....
I guess i've ranted enough...till next time...
