perhapes unexplainable i guess...

Have u ever feel that u wanted to do something so much but there is reasons you cant do??...and when that happens it feels so not that nice...is like u know u want to do it but at the same time u know too the reasons y. And u always have to keep reminding urself that u cant do it coz of the reasons. happen to me yest nite that i feel horrible, bad that i dun get to send sms coz i over use my limit. But somehow, i just sms her even though i know i'm in deep shit but i'm happy that i did it coz i know i wanted to and i just cant help it. it is just something i want to do every nite just getting to communicate with her. I just dun wan something that was build over nites and nites of conversation to be like broken off...of course something like that dun just broke off...but then it is just the feeling that u just dun control...anyway...i just hope these 12 days will end soon...coz i really want to just chat wit her just as how it was to be...