Thing about to come....

i have so much to post rite now but just not the rite time...when u have tests, assignments, and camp to devide ur time to it is just abit too hectic....haha...well just be patient wit me yeah...and pray hard i dun forget wat i wan to post=) Do continue to hang around the chatbox=)

Understanding another....

Understanding a person is not an easy thing. Many times we try to understand y a person does certain stuff in a certain way. But that can never be anser unless we ask them. But then agian that is not a guarantee way we can get the answer we seek, for sometimes they themselves dun understand. So wat should we do??...should we hate those actions done by them and hurt u?? Should be ignore them when we c them?? i think no matter how freaking hard this would be, coz it sound damn freaking easy, we should always make nice with them. Well i myself is making effort on it. People may hurt u with their words which is wrong but the moment we hate them back and curse them, then we are at fault too. I know many of us might not care whether that person did the rite thing or wrong, but by hating someone then we are wrong. Isnt that important?? Go think things thru...

Relationships....

Wat comes to ur mind when relationship comes to ur mind?!....i think it is natural that we always think BGR. I mean honestly when u say relationshio naturally it comes to a boy n a girl...couples!! rite?!...when wil u think oh relationship is bro sis mother father relationship?! I'm typing this is coz talk to Jung Teng(JT for short) the other day on the phone and as usual he being himself ask me about girls over here...haha. And i ask how is he and his gf etc etc...then it makes me realise that for some reason that throughout my coll years is him that i talk the most about BGR. Maybe is the way how he says about things and how funny he could haha. And i on that phone conversation he ask me to look for one here and start a new relationship..and i was like "errr....that ar...ermmm.." speechless. Is not like i dun wan a relationship, but after the last one i think a lot. And everytime i think about it, the fear of things happen always pop out. The only time when i did ask the question again without any problematic thoughts is that lonely nite over here where i told myself for nites not to ask but just cant help it.

Ok enuf bout myself..time for the thoughts part about relationship...So again let me ask wat is relationship to u?? BGR?? Family?? And to christians God?? Well i'm gonna address to all 3 which i think all plays a role.

God!! Yes the CREATOR, KING OF KINGS, LORD OF LORDS!! Aint He just great?! you may be asking "wat a relationship with something u cant c?!" First of all God is not a thing, just because we cant c Him doesnt mean he is a thing. If He is a thing then we are a thing of a thing, coz we are created in His image. With that saying that doesnt make Him a human/man nor does it makes us a god. If u try to reason this out go spend time with Him and i bet everything will be explain to you personally. Now a relationship with God is something different than any relationship on this world i hav known. When we have that intimate relationship with Him, He will show Himself to us and everytime when we meet at that special place it feels very comforting, much joy!! And everytime it reaches to a different level. The peace and comfort, joy relieve He gives is different than of those on earth. Well wat i've said so far might just sound selfish desire where i wan to feel the peace then i should hav that relationship. Wrong!!! That is partly the benefit of the relationship with the CREATOR, who created you and know you inside out, from ur deepest secrets to ur surface face. He knows everything about u!! Who in this world would know everything about u?! Spending time with Him everyday, not only will we know the CREATOR more, we also grow spiritually. I cant expalin anymore further how wonderful it is to hav a relationship with Him, for this is need to be done at an individual level and experience it personally.

Now next i would talk about family. Why our having a relationship with them is important?? After all they constantly goes against u in stuff, thoughts like u think u r rite but they think u r not. Or having unreasonable reason/ no reason to scold u, upsets u, frustrates u. But till the end of the day, they are ur family, i'm talking about blood family k?! unless u can take out the DNA of ur parents then u will always be part of that family, that goes the same for bro n sis. No matter how irritating they can be they are still ur bro n sis. As a family i think we should always be tolerate with each other coz i think if ur relationship with ur family is horrible, then next time when u have a family of ur own....it would be just similar to the one u r in. Starting to worry about ur future family??..then start working on making ur relationship with ur own family now!!! I started mine which thru normal eyes cant c any progress. I hav fears of my own too u know!!

Now i think this next part is where everyone is always interested in BGR!!! Dun be shy in admitting it, it is normal, it is in our very own body, the hormones that get us attracted to the opposite sex. But then i'm not saying to blame everything on hormones. We are humans who can control ourselves. I think in this era many take BGR as sex partners...for the adults that is, for kids is like some kind of game, changing bf/gf every week. Teenagers...ermmm...no need to say lar...experiments stage, curious about the physical aspects of the opposite sex. Well i admit i had that stage of teenagers life, but not the kids part. Adult...no need to say lar...sex also hav not done before =P Now BGR is not about the physical aspect, nor should it be a kid thing. I mean it could be cute for a 5 yr old saying he or she has a bf/gf but we should always remember wat r the thoughts we r putting in a small kid's mind, that might be the very foundation in their mind saying BGR is like changing clothes, which is totally wrong!! Teenagers..aww..those years of hormones goes ga ga in our body over the opposite sex. Which is where the danger is, coz of our hormones we tend to make the wrong move. coz of the sudden surge of feeling in us then we go n say i like u, and after sometime where the hormones dun kick in then say to each other i dun like u giving stupid excuses. So teenagers out there dun jump into a relationship so fast, but at the end of the day is ur choice. Well enuf with the physical aspect, how bout the emotion aspect?? Does our 'i love you' is said coz that is wat he/she wants to hear?? Or does it really reflect ur feeling towards that person?? many times we can say i hate u to someone who really upsets u and that reflects wat u feel, so i think when it comes to 'i love you' then shouldnt be the same?? shouldnt it reflect how u feel about a person?? Dun ever say those 3 words if u dun mean it. BGR is not about physical attracttion, which to a certain extent it plays a role, but i think most of it got to do with our emotions. If u can say that ur emotions that caused u to treat the person u like horrible or playing around with people's feelings then that is not wat ur emotion is, it is wat ur attitude is and u how treat relationship like. If ur feeling or that person is really love, u dun go n beat that person, u dun scold, u dun treat them like maids, or ATMs.

And of course in every relationship, whether it is wit God, family or BGR, there is always important things that should always be there. Commitment, Communication, Trust, Faith, Believe. No commitment to the relatioship will be broken easily when priblem arises. No communication with one another, we start to lose that trust, faith, and believe in each other. And without trust in each other, faith in each other, n believe in each other, which is the basic foundation i think in a relationship, then the whole relationship will be just as easily broken.

The dreadful week....

Ok now for sad part...=P...well hav been busy doing my assignments last week this week and the week to come i will be too T_T...And had my test on monday n yesterday too which i kinda satisfy with it coz i didnt really study too=P But the killer is the assignment, is darn freaking hard and yet there is so much limitations!! How lar expect people to do?!...but then many able to did it...which i think cause them their sanity...i almost lost mine!! Yeah really i almost lost mine while doing my assignment when my com suddenly just hang and all my research just go *poof* disappear and the deadline was like few hours to go!! Later i still need to do another assignment due on monday...why why why??!!! and there is not much time to finals..like 5 more weeks!!...

Cousins!!....

Ladies n gentlemen...me proudly present to u....JOSHUA...haha...not me bro but Grandma Yen Wen's(=P) little cousin

Cute aint he?!...haha...ladies there is no need to snatch over him..he is still a small kid =P Well seeing him reminds me of my counsin sister...whom i miss lots too!! Soon i will another 2 more counsins, yes my aunt is pregnant and is expecting TWINS!!! Yes TWINS and is not identical as in diff gender, how rare is that. Well pray God will be with her till they are safely in this world!!

Spring is here...

Wee.....spring is here..haha...and flowers stats to bloom after the winter...now coz of me being busy with stuff....so not much of pics will be here..but heck..spring is 3 months long..so be patients me fellow readers...there will be more to come...haha!!! At the mean time enjoy with the pics of flowers i got=)...erm if the picture sucks do forgive me..coz i took these while i was walking=)

"I got that too!!"....

Been here in Aust for more than a month now. And watching the tele here makes me realise Aus has same shows as US but in thier own version. Like American Idol....the Aussies came out with Australian idol( k i think is common lar...they even had Malaysian Idol, which personally i think is a flop), Then they have So You Think You Can Dance, Are You Smarter Than A Fifth Grader(i like this, common if u are so old n u cant answer questions from 1st to 5th grade then it is sure embrassing, besides it helps broaden knowledge..hehe). Overall i like the American version more for some reason...but then it never hut to watch the Aussies do their stuff eh?!

So you think you can dance.....finale...

if you have not been watching it....please go download it somewhere off the net or just go to youtube n watch it!! For the finale....2 pairs= 4 person and everyone gets to dance with everyone!! And all the dance was amazing!! i can only remember few of the dance...they did, foxtrot, broadway, Russian Trapek(i think i spelled this rite) and few other dance. Go watch it as it surely will entertain u!!

Hiatus break....

Muahahaha....me back....me back from the dreadful week of assignments and test...*the horror.. the horror...* i'm still have assignments to finish up though..sigh wat horrific thing it is. Anyway now that i'm back for the moment..let me post post post....post that i've been accumalating for almost 2 weeks...so enjoy my loyal readers!!!

Hiatus....

Due to my assignments and some other reasons....i will temporary stop blogging...till when i've not decided yet. Do hang around the chat box i will still check it but wont be updating the blog. No worries, by the time i post something there will be loads to read=)

Work overload....

I'm so gonna be busy over the next few weeks...i have an assignment due this friday, next wed, the mon week after next, the first mon of oct, 3rd wed of oct, and 13 online test for the next 9 weeks....u c...another reason why some students go crazy=P

Fathers day...

Hmmm...is either u must be wondering y am i typing about fathers day or u think aint fathers day in june....well it is true fathers day is in june and has pass but that applies to Msia and i dunno which other country is the same. But here in Aust, yest was fathers day. So !st week of sept is fathers day in Aust, and 3rd week of June is fathers day in Msia. So back to the topic, since it was a sunday ususally go to church lar. Then during church, they had the kids leads the congregation to worship, which i think was cute...haha...and they even had a dance presentation, which of course simple dance move but nice=)

7.5/10.....

Woo hoo...got back my first assignment from here..haha..and to tell u the truth..that work is like 8 hours serious thinking n typing and also last minute work=P Well actually before that i had some thoughts on how i can do it and rough idea how i can do it but that is like just few minutes the serious work is all in the 8 hours. And i think it is a good thing that they return the assignments coz there is where we can learn to improve and know our mistakes. Well hope i do a better job the next 4 assignments T_T

Reunited....

Finally after 1 month and half month here....i've reunited with some my clothes...haha. Well i miss my t-shirts, all this while i'm in Aussie , all i've wear is long sleeves and long pants everyday. And with my shorts and tees has arrived i would feel more like home=)

Peace....

What does peace means to us?? is it when there is no quarrels, no wars, no conflict is peace?? yeah that is a kind of peace but wat i wan to focus on today is on individual peace. When we often face problems in we always feels that the problems is overwhelming that we frustrate ourselves jsut to solve it and at times when we sleep we even dream/think about it where is that peace of mind u might say.

I was reading Philippians 4 and v7 says And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. How does God's peace feel like?? like mention in the verse, that peace will guard your hearts and your minds. I would say is a special peace that is a peace that we want over and over again, it is so peaceful that somehow your problems is solve and there is no more worries about it. So how do we get this peace of God?? Believe in Jesus. And in the same chapter v6 it says Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.

Well that verse is just what God's peace is. For me personally i like Psalm 23:

The Lord is my Shepherd, i shall not be in want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures,
He leads me besides quiet waters,
He restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness for His name's sake.
Even though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death
I will fear no evil,
For You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff,
They comfort me.
You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
My cup overflows.
Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life,
And i will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

This psalm always reminds me with all my troubles come over me, all i need to do is just trust in the Lord and He will get me out of it giving His peace.=)

Target...

As i have mention earlier with the thoughts...i've come up with somethings...as a reminder of wat i wan=)....at elast for this few months...

1) To grow closer to God while i'm here
2) To encourage some friedns back home to do quiet time
3) To study hard for this sem and change my old ways of studying(which is near impossible=P)
4) To control my spendings for target no 5, 6, 7, 8, 9
5) To contribute to the growth of God's family=)
6) To pay off my debts...ermm..more of expenditure...haha
7) To earn/ save enuf money to get air ticket back to Msia in Dec(i wan to spend my Christmas back home with my frens n family and of course hopefully CNY too=P)(anyone willing to sponser me?? 100%, 50%, 30%??)
8) To achieve what i hope for when i get back(if i ever get back that is)
9) To somehow contribute back to the family(both sides)
10) To help my youth back home to grow even I'm here.
11) To hopefully get use to the churches here though i'm not so keen with how things is done.
12) To find people to compose a song....i've been saying about since the beginning of the year...sigh=P

i think that is all for now haha..anything will just add up here...=P

Merdeka!!...

In case u r wondering wat that means it means independence. Well yesterday....31/8 was the independence day for Msia and as of yesterday Msia is 51 yrs old. Well for a Msian in the older days i think it would be soemthing very happy and proud for everyone. But for now i think many has change thier mind about it. Yes Msia is a country with multi race in it with the multi religion everything multi lar...the best part of the multi is the food!!!=P(muahahahahahaha) and next in line is the holidays we get=P. The benefit of this is we learn diff stuff about each other's culture and learn to tolerate among each other's do and don't. But i think that has been disrupted over the years. Over the years the tolerance is slowly faded this is cause when there is obvious unfairness to certain people and the rest gets nothing to say coz they will use the law and etc to shut ur mouth up. I think is time that people realise that Msia had it's independence base on unity of differences and battle thru to get this independence, and after 50 yrs, on surface it might seems still standing firm but internally it is all battle for being the top over the other. Sooner or later this will definitely become a mess....pray for a change fellow Msians!!

Juwita Suwito...

On Saturday nite, went to church to listen to Juwita Suwito sang, since she was invited by the church. And if u r interested in her bio data...go Google fore her=P...dun expect me to blog it here...i blog not post people's bio data. Anyway back to the topic, she is definitely a good singer, few of the songs she sang was Love Song(by Sara Bareilles), No One(Alicia Keys) and few other which includes oldies as in really oldies for the older generation. And after that the church provided Msian supper...haha(i think partly she is from Msia and also coz the next day is Msia's independence day) We had Bubur Cha Cha(is this how u spell it??..correct me if I'm wrong), which i didn't fancy much and Pisang Goreng!!! yeah that is the most memorable food from back home but then again, it taste different coz of the banana they use. Oh i also forgot they had fried sweet potato too.

Flooded mind....

well actually this happen on Friday but just didn't had the mood to post it here that day. That day all of the sudden all sorts of stuff came into my mind making think and usually this doesn't happen to me often coz somehow i always find reason/ ways /explanation for each prob/stuff according one at a time. But that day it was so different that it all flooded into my mind all of the sudden that i ended up with a migraine. then of course in the end i manage to get everything clear out one by one which took me the whole day. With every stuff i reminded myself with Psalm 23, well that is my personal psalm that i learn when i was a small kid and it has always help me through and again and again i reminded myself that everything will be alright. But i think when everyone comes to a situation like mine, it will sometimes gives u another thought on whether wat is happening is rite or wrong. For me, i didn't thought that i will ask this question again after so many years, 'am i taking the right road??', 'do i wan to go down the same road again??', 'should i proceed with what i have decided??'. Well this is not a question of my believes but rather something that I've experience before and somehow that fear of what happened to me before repeats which i think everyone would definitely feel the same. Everyone of us makes decisions before, to some, after they made the decision and go on thru with the decision half way then they regret with what they have decided and say ' damn I've should have taken the other option.' After many yrs of having that thinking in me all of the sudden it came back to me the other day. And the trouble with that is like reformatting ur computer where u have to install everything all over again and update your com. Similarly on Friday i ended up spending the whole afternoon clearing up my mind reassure myself that i cant regret with what I've decide, even if I'm taking the same road and facing the same fears again.

From that day too i realize that we as humans we often regret with what we have decided, and there is always the 2 possibility, which is wither we fail o learn which ends up regretting our whole life or we learn and make the good out of what we have decided. And of course occasionally we learn ans we always tell ourself not to take the same road again but ended up in it again. As u might can c that i've type this kinda long but wat the heck..this is the filtered version anyway=P so imagine how much i've thought on that day...sigh...