Approaching the end of the river, and into the sea...

Oh how I miss this blog of mine...i've not done much changes to it still looks the same as how i left, jumping to another blog just for my convenience. But none the less i still return to this blog of mine second of 3. Somewhat my favourite you may say. The first was gone thanks to the changes made on the host site...The 3rd surviving i think, more of time will change it sooner or later when I have plans for it. As of now i'll return to this blog of mine where I started this 5 years ago.

Life seems smooth going on the surface...at least that is what i want to believe. I'm at this junction again actually where I need to choose a direction i need to go. With so much uncertainty i'm lost for thought and words actually. And I know everyone cares about me and keep on asking me about things but honestly I don't really appreciate it unless it comes from her. Cause I don't know where I'm heading to. No answers, no certainty, just lost and confuse walking on the path that I've chosen hoping I make the right choice and even when it's wrong i would somehow make things right. And not to be rude or anything, i understand that people care but I hate it when I can't give you a simple answer and have to give a whole back story. To a person probably I will be willing to share it out but to a whole clan of people who can seem they need to ask for themselves one by one it gets kinda annoying.

I really hope all things goes well for now, pray for wisdom and courage to face what is heading my way or at least where I'm heading to, and none the less what is about to come at the end of the year...
I'm still afraid of what it might be. Though efforts to get things done a make things better still seems so hard. I'm really afraid that I'm being to comfortable in this state where I'm alright with the less talking and so on...it gives me fears that once I let it be it will grow larger and larger giving more space in between until we are so lost that we never find each other anymore. Some people might say just let it go give it a rest and start all over again after some time. I agree when all i see is so uncertain, almost like walking in a place full of fog, probably walking in circles or heading into possible sanctuary or just walking towards the edge of a cliff where everything ends...But i'm not giving up yet I need to know that i've put everything i got on the line for this...so that at the end no matter what the outcome is, I can say i've fought for it and not let go.

to end it here...an awesome song, time to look forward and hope the best!

"Young And Beautiful"

[Verse 1]
I've seen the world
Done it all
Had my cake now
Diamonds, brilliant
In Bel Air now
Hot summer nights, mid July
When you and I were forever wild
The crazy days, city lights
The way you'd play with me like a child

[Chorus]
Will you still love me
When I'm no longer young and beautiful?
Will you still love me
When I got nothing but my aching soul?
I know you will, I know you will
I know that you will
Will you still love me when I'm no longer beautiful?

[Verse 2]
I've seen the world, lit it up
As my stage now
Channeling angels in the new age now
Hot summer days, rock 'n' roll
The way you play for me at your show
And all the ways I got to know
Your pretty face and electric soul

[Chorus]
Will you still love me
When I'm no longer young and beautiful?
Will you still love me
When I got nothing but my aching soul?
I know you will, I know you will
I know that you will
Will you still love me when I'm no longer beautiful?

[Verse 3]
Dear lord, when I get to heaven
Please let me bring my man
When he comes tell me that you'll let him in
Father tell me if you can
Oh that grace, oh that body
Oh that face makes me wanna party
He's my sun, he makes me shine like diamonds

[Chorus]
And will you still love me
When I'm no longer young and beautiful?
Will you still love me
When I got nothing but my aching soul?
I know you will, I know you will
I know that you will
Will you still love me when I'm no longer beautiful?
Will you still love me when I'm no longer beautiful?
Will you still love me when I'm not young and beautiful?