Answers...

Be warned that thi post is mean to answer to some annoying people and thus practically a long and wordy post...

Have been sleeping at 5am in the morning. The weather here is too hot to sleep especially when there isn't aircon/fan in the room. I was practically sweating while trying to sleep. I ended up playing my psp instead of going to sleep.

I was reading people's blogs and most people in general always mention when they have a gf/bf, but then again there is always the break up post. And i'm always happy for those who found the mr/ms right, i mean what is there not to be happy about?? just hope more that they get marry and get ang paus from them=P...wahahahhaa. But that is not the reason lar, i believe too when you finally hav someone, u also wan the people around u to be happy for u too even it isnt much of their biz. And for me to answer some of u...who has been bombarding me on this part...i'm just hoping...though i never stop thinking...But with things going on with my life, it seems almost impossible....

To those who ask me about my life. Rite now so many things in my mind that everything seems so confusing, seems so unreal, impossible. But then again maybe is just me being reluctant to take that risk. This could be nice but yet terrifying coz things seem so uncertain.

People say life is like a journey, but wat kind of journey would it be like?? In my opinion, how our journey in life would be is up to us. No mattere where the destination in life there is always obstacles for us. How we face those obstaclesis in our hands, happy/sad/positie/nagative thinking it all rest in us. At the end of the day, it is through these obstacles that we learn/grow/mature.

Oh how my life should be, i wonder many times. People always say you form your own life. But yet it is never easy coz of the things in life. Just wish my mind would be clear for once to listen and decide things with a sense of understanding and just for the sake of coz i need to. Not only that, i too wish i can let go of things no matter how much it meant to me. Not physical things but emotionally(sound kinda cold but at times it has to be done=(). Many times decision seems so hard for me coz of the emotional attachment i have for it, which makes it so much more defiicult to make.

Oh be still my body, mind and soul. All seems so messed up with own matters and nothings seems to be right. It is time things need to be set right and be done. Oh be still...

Oh if you are asking me y dun i update my status in facebook. Coz i dun wan to be bombarded with questions from unwanted people. I mean i know u care but if i dun feel like telling you dun come and play guilty game with me....so i just ended up deciding not to update anything there.

Roast HUMAN....

*sweating*....today the tempreture tops is 41 degrees, and rite now at nite is at high 30s degrees. Can you imagine the heat here?! I can feel my skin burning just by walking outside. Tomorrow tempreture tops will be 42, 43 degrees. This will continue for the next few days. Thankfully coz of the weather training in Msia=P i somehow can tahan the heat, unlike my parents complaining so hot even when the fan is directly blowing at them.

So since today was so hot but that doesnt mean i did nothing and just lay somewhere cool. When i woke up i got my clothes to wash, i mean since it will be a hot day as well just get it wash and hang. Then when the cloethes was washing i went out and send stuff to HitoMi, which i told her i would send long time ago(sorry for the delay) And it was then that i feel the intense heat on my skin, since i got to walk out. The heat was so bad that on my way back home i got to get a drink just to cool off. And i had to do housework every now and then today.

While in betwwen the house work, i played my digimon on my psp. Yeah u read that rite, digimon. I think most probably thinking why am i still playing digimon. Me either, but i think most probably is that i didnt finish the game last time so just wan to finish it. And the worst part while doing all this is my mind thinks. I wonder why at time why in studies i cant do so well yet i can multitask and get things rite. Even rite now, i'm typing this post, msn, playing my psp, thinking about things that need to be done, plan on things and thinking about stuffs. Sometimes i wish my brain just stop thinking. But then again that is not possible, and that could be a bad sign(not thinking --->brain stop functioning--->body vegetation). Sigh...ermmm..better stop here be fore i bore everyone with all the boring stuff...

CNY...

Chinese New Year or some may know it as the Lunar New Year which is the same thing. Every year when it comes to CNY, it is a season of 15 days for me to eat and collect ang paus=P...wahahaha...of course there is always the fellowship. Unlike every year, this year i didnt have any reunion dinner. But the ang paus...ermm..i've collected 2 but as from wat i heard people here give bible verses instead of cash...well i've not check my ang paus yet. Having a bad habit of keeping to the end and open all up.

And usually on the 1st day, i'll go to my grams' place for lunch and atthe same time collect ang paus since aunt/uncle/ grams all are there=P. But for this year i clean the house *cha tou* and somehow i manage to get myslf out of the work and go watch Underworld(which i find it kinda dissapointing).

For 2 nites in a row had outside food. Yest for jap buffet which was good, since they serve fresh sashimi(seriously fresh and not those kept for 2 days fresh) and oysters. Since i went we my friends, they booked the table and the oysters need to be booked to and they booked 5 DOZEN, yeah 5 DOZEN!!! Eat until jelak =P, but it is worth it lar if u r a big fan of jap food and big eater. It is A$28 per person and eat all you can. The tempura there is also nice. And had sakae too, that is the jap rice wine. Then tonite had dinner with my parents at Sophia, which is a western restaurant. I find it ok, above average and the portion is huge which comes with a extra pricy tag than the usual restaurants.

Talking about drinks, every year i will drink all sorts of alcohol. I remember one year i think it was after Christmas eve service we hang out over at Mario's place and played game while the punishment is to drink. And at first was just beer then later on whisky appeared, and then some other liquor appear to mix with. And sad to say i'm a drinker though i dun drink like 24/7 every now and then i have craving for it. And ever since i came here....when in the rite moment and had the opportunity to drink i will. Lke Christmas nite when over to Daniel's place, i drank wine with them. Then on new year also drink beer with them. Then yeaterday drink again. Though so far is occasions that i drank those, it is a matter of time before i drink it out of occasion. Need to control.

Mumblings...round 2...

Slept at 3 in the morning, woke up at 8...then start shifting/packing/cleaning between houses till 5. The only break i had was lunch. Been working so much that my foot was so dirty till as though i step on black oil that bad. Had a hard time washing my leg coz of the dirt. Anyway i hav finish setting up my room...and from today onward it is official that i'm staying at a new place. Just rite before CNY everything is done and sleeping in a new place. New place for the new year.

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Making decisions...life full of making decisions. Yet why so many decision is so hard to make? Reason, either we are too greedy that from the optons we have we wan all and dunno which to decide or we are just afriad of making the wrong decision or the decision we hav to make might coz us to sacrifice something meant alot to us. So which are you usually at? Or ou hav other view that making a decision is difficult. Do share it with me...haha..love to have a chat. For me i'm usually the 3rd one that i mention. Often i face decision tht requires sacrifices that i think is important to me. And there is time where after making those decisons, i regret and at time it turn out good, better, a blessing. But no matter wat i decided though i may go through a hard time of getting that unsatisfaction away, i learned/grow, become a bit more mature/wiser.

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We feel a way and yet dunno whether it is true and yet need to ignore it but yet the mind says another thing. Confusing?? that is problem....

Mumblings...

wat a tired day...been shifting stuff the whole day. And rite now using my laptop in my new room on the floor. And gonna seep on the floor for the nite...sigh...rite now so many things to think and decision tomake...i wan to talk to somebody...sigh...it is back home it would much easier...

oh to those who knows something about me....ermm..and if u are still wanting to know more about it...well i'm at the junction of wether to give up or not...bah...if thing would be much more easier...

Compilation...

After 4 days of work...there is still stuff to move....sigh..body aching badly, not coz of no regular exercise, is just that i over did during the retreat and have not really had proper rest then come the 4 days of shifting things and other past injuries reasons.

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After six months of not having new songs, and thanks to Joelle, i had plenty of new songs today...and thanks to Nishanti for Fray's album....haha..seriously after that long without new songs just feels like losing rythem in myself. Everyone has thier own rythem well mine sort of like gone out in that six months. For those who knows me, usually u will see my tapping my lap or feet, in this 6 months, i just cant tap to any rythem that i usually hav, as though my own counting has gone wrong.

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My twin couz finally has names....after so long they were born into this world they have thier names given to them. It seems there is pic of them but i have not gotten the chance to have a look at them yet.

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Had been having worst sleepless nites. Been sleeping at 12, wake up at 3, then at 6 then 9 then at 11. And in between those times dreams that drain out my brain energy, seriously every time i wake up i feel dizzy as though no proper recharge is given to my brain.

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Was having a chat with my friend the other nite, talk about all sorts of stuff always. And in our conversation, the question of how much is ur impact in people's life. Seriously, i dunno how to answer that. I dunno how much impact did i make in people's life. As far as i can remember, i didnt do/ say something that makes people's point of view/ life change. Some of u might think it is important to hav an impact on someone's life, but for me, i dun think that is important to me. I view this as, how much i impacted someone's life doesnt matter to me, wat matter is that i did something to help that person, if it does make a difference in that person's life then it his/her blessing.

Then another question came, that is wat if u hav done so much things for the girl/boy that you like or gf/bf and at the end they choose someone else, wat will you do? Seriously, you can see this in 2 ways. If the person can like someone else after u hav done so much it could mean that they are just using u and dun really like you. But i would rather see things the other way which is since you like that person and u know the fact that they being with you just doesnt make them happy why keep them with you and let them feel unhappy? i would rather let them go and go after the person they think/ feel that makes them happy and loved. Seriously, how can you say u like someone when u r holding the person back to be with you and they are not feeling happy about it?? Tell me how, i would like to know.

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i think i will be in the new house by this saturday. The new place is kinda spacious but then again it has indian smell in it as the previous tenants was indians, and then the house is kinda run down. That day as i was vacuming the house, every where was full of spiders and webs. Now that we are going to stay there hopes it turns better.

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i'm gonna ban myself from listening to chinese love song for sometime....i keep thinking of things when i hear them. Especially Leo Ku's King of Love Songs

Across The Universe...

Have you watch this movie before??...well overall i would say it is nice...not great but just all rite, average. It is a musical movie, and let say Mamma Mia is from ABBA, then this would be from the Beatles. Another oldies band, but their song is good. And how the songs fit into the plot, go wiki it.

Me back...

I'm back...after 3 days of disconnecting from the world=P. Went for a leaders retreat, and after ages....ok..more of like years, didnt go for any leader's retreat, it felt good. Coz get to be refresh again, and be re-equiped to bring more glory to God's kingdom!!! Anyway..will share more i hope over the next few post....if i can put everthing in a short nice post=P

Movie update...

Haha....as mention in my past post...i've been wtching movies...and yes since then i've continue to watch more.

So i've watched....Basic Instinct 2, Because I Said So, Definately,Maybe, Honey and Clover(jap), Meet Dave, Next Avengers - Hereos of Tomorrow, Notes On A Scandal, Open Season 2, Pathfinder, Sweeney Todd The Demon Barber Of Fleet Street(a musical), The Incredible Hulk, Vicky. Christina. Barcelona, Wall-E, A Scanner Darkly, Doctor Strange - Sorceror Supreme, Fullmetal Alchemist Movie, Hoodwinked, Michael Clayton, Tekken, The Ant Bully, The Whole Nine Yards, The Whole Ten Yards.

This time 22 movies....kekekeeke...

Faith...

1 Samuel 17 is about David and Goliath and i believe most people know why he won over Goliath coz God was with him and he has faith in God. Hebrews 11 talks all about faith. So wat is faith? My explanation of faith would be believing without seeing. So when i say i have faith in God means i'm believing in Him but yet i dun see Him. Why do we as Christians struggle so much when comes to having faih in God? According to the bible, it says that God is onmi present and he is with us all the time. But yet why are we having hard time believing those very words are true? I say is cause we dun see it, and hav not really had a personal encounter with God. Sadly to say, not every Christians that accepted Jesus as Saviour had experince Him. By experiencing the personal encounter with God only then can we believe without seeing Him, cause when we can feel Him mean that He is already with us thus proving the bible rite and believing Him to be real and with us would be so much easier. Of course even when we hav experince Him and yet cant feel His presence and everything seems wrong, that is the time where ur faith in Him is tested. So wat good does faith do to us?? 1 Samuel 17, the victory of David, this shows to us that when we have faith in God, then at the end of the day, no matter wat the matter is we will be triumphant, victorious, and overcome the matter. And is by faith in Him that we gt our blessings from Him.

Phone...

On one faithful nite when i was sleeping....my phone attempted excape from me...and as a result...
It was damage...

When the phone drop it woke me up but me in the blur state thinking it just fell so just pick it up. When i woke up realising the middle part with the slide, that part came off the phone so i find the missing part which was spoiled obviously, and i manage to put that part back to the phone but abit cacat coz of the spoiled area. In the pic is the gold part at the right hand side in middle.

Healthy...

The week after the strawberry picking...ermm..my breakfast became healthy for a week...hahhaa...i ate musli with the strawberry..then later on added grapes in it...If you are wondering wat is musli...ermm in Msia the musli i know they sell is Uncle Toby's musli bar, so u ate that before then you practically know wat is it. Here they sell it like cereal...

Musli with straberry and grapes...

That is the yogurt with stawberry

Even the desert is so call healthy for that week=P

Oldies...

Suddenly had the need for some oldies song....kekeke...so i took the initiative to post some here...'Have I Told You Lately That I Love You' by Rod Stewart, 'Hello' by Lionel Richie, 'Nothing Gonna Change My Love For You' by Glen Moredious, 'Love Of My Life' by Jim Brickman, 'Hey Jude' by The Beatles....enjoy=)

Living For God...

Well readers what does it mean to live for God? Many people though that when you believe in Jesus, then that is it, full stop. But that is not how it is, when we believe in Him, then we are to surrender our lives to Him and we should be living for God. So let me ask you again what does it mean to live for God?

1 Peter 4 : 7 - 11
The end of all things is near. Therefore be clear minded and self-controlled so that you can pray. Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a mulitude of sins. Offer hospitality to one another without grumbling. Each one should use whatever gift he has received to serve others, faithfully administering God's grace in its various forms. If anyone speaks, he should do it as one speaking the very words of God. If anyone serves he should do it with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To him be glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen.

To live for God means to do God's will and in the verse above those that are bolded is part of what it meant to live for God. It is pretty clear and simple to undertand, but it always hard to do it coz of the live we are so used to. But because of this hardship, that we learn and grow to be faithful child of God.

Everything...

Ok...i'm not a big fan of him like Crybun but his songs are nice...besides i think he is talented. And i got this music video from Crybun...i like the lyrics=)...enjoy.