It has been days...

It has been days that i wake up in the morning expecting a sms and yet i c none...
It has been days where everything i do, i cant concentrate and just thinking...
It has been days that i'm told things is fine and yet it is not...
It has been days that i worried and hoping everything is fine...
It has been nites before i sleep, my eyes open wide just thinking...
It has been days that i just wish i know and be assured of everything is fine...and i wonder when will that happen...

Sex...

Haha...well i read jess blog the other day and then someone left a msg on her blog linking to the person's blog which goes on the topic about sex.

Sex!! Is that word a taboo?? well i dun think is a taboo but y is it that to some people that word shouldnt be said at all?? I think it is just because is something personal and shoud happen between 2 person, at least that is the reason i could think of, why would it be taboo-ed then?? Well in this era where sex has been in almost every media(movies, tv, music, pictures etc) it has become a common thing to many. But yet there is some who is not exposed to it.

To those that are not exposed to it, congrats on being pure and innocent, seriously being a teenager and yet not exposed to it is i would say almost a rare person to find. Most of my frens are exposed to sex education(this would be a nicer and proper way to put it=P) and usually when we find one who doesnt know a thing about it(this reminds me Hans...hahaha) somehow get influenced and be educated=P

Now i'm not saying that exposed to sex education is a bad thing well it is a good thing that at least u will know the danger having sex. I'm not here to educate u, if u wanna know more and be educated u go find out urself. Of couse when u r a teenager the hormones kicks in and gets u attracted to someone of the opposite gender. Well y this happen to us in out body for solely reproduction purposes when we are ADULTS and MARRIED. It is a gift from God when a man and a woman become one. So dun go having sex all around the place....i'm saying this coz it is the rite thing to do. There is always own judgement provided knowing where the line is and not crossing the line.

Now as i mention above about another person's blog in that blog she asked the guys...let me quote 'Would you mind if your wife is not a virgin anymore? Or you fool around with girls but still demand for a virgin wife?' My answer, if the girl i love and married to me is not virgin, i cant do anything about it, besides if she is my wife means i love her which means not only am i gonna care for her but also to accept everything of her, both bad and good. And to be honest of course knowing the fact that she is not virgin anymore does bother me a little but am i gonna let a small matter like this to ruin everything in a relationship?! No i will not let that happen. And to the second part, i wont fool around it is not me=P...hahaha. But i'm not saying that i dun mind guys go fooling around, i feel that they bring bad name to the guys. But then guys shouldnt get the full blame on foolng around, though there isnt many but there is girls that fool around with boys and that is wrong too...conclusion is both guy n gal shouldnt be fooling around.

Tagged by Yen Wen...

1) Do you think you are hot?
Yeah coz of the hot weather that i'm about to experience=P

2)Upload a favourite picture of yourself

3) Why do you like the picture?
Well i dun hav fav picture but then i choose this coz there is 2 landmark in it...haha The Sydney Opera House and The Sydney Harbour Bridge.

4) When was the last time you ate pizza?
One of days when i was in Sydney which was in between 26th-29th of Nov...

5) What was the last song you listen to?
The Best of You - Foo Fighters

6) What are you doing now besides this?
Thousands of thoughts running thru my mind...

7) What other name do you like besides your name?
Hmmm...tis a question that never come across my mind...when i found one i'll let u know..

8) Name 5 people you wish to tag
i) Hitomi
ii) Mel
iii) Charis
iv) Lilian
v) Jess

9) Who is number 1?
Friend?! Dun tell me enemy meh?!

10) Number 3 having a relationship?
Yeah, with God

11) Who is number 4?
Amoi..hahhaa=P

12) Who is number 2 then?
Couz...

Cold...

Today is a cold day...haha...stupid sentence...well it was really cold today..it rain on n off the whole day...i didnt c the sun today and bcoz of that i ended up sleeping till 1 to wake up..haha..i'm just lazy that is all. I remember days like this in Msia, where i sit on my chair leaning on the wall with a window and i look outside. Looking at the sky where is dark and the rain drops just pour out and think about stuff, remembering things that happen to me. There was once when i was unhappy about something and i had to go thru the rain to go somewhere and when i reach, someone ask me am i crying coz of that something and in me i was laughing coz i find it funny that i was crying coz of my unhappyness...anyway..i ended explaining is the rain. And i remember the days where i walk back after school under the rain. i just miss those days...

Gotcha!!...

Haha...oh Yen Wen, oh Yen Wen....now u should be at the airport ady ready to go back...and hopefully when u read this when u r back home...u r having a great time there and of course the look on ur face when u read this=P oh by the way...nice work u have done here...hahaha

HSM 3...

Alrite....incase u dunno wat is HSM..that is High School Musical...well i didnt wan to watch that today at first but then again...no choice. At first i thought of going to Glen to play a game of bowling, after checking out the price which is too expensive in my opinion that is, then i headed to Newsagency to read some mags..which surprisingly no new mag or at least mags that interest me so i headed to the cinema to watch a movie and the earliest was HSM i had no choice too coz need to go church.

So as some of u know i'm kinda a movie freak...yeah those days are over since i come here....watching a movie here is making the hole in the pocket bigger..seriously bigger, everything is here is expensive. Anyway back to the movie, overall i would give a 3 out of 5. I like the dances, if u watched and notice, there is a little part(and i really mean a small part) of Saturday Nite Fever...haha..which part go figure it out=P...then there is the Waltz which of course somehow mix with another dance. And there is ballet(this is even harder to notice), if u r interested in the dance go ahead n watch there is some nice ones. Music, yes without the music there cant be a musical. The songs, i like the slow songs, and 1 or 2 fast songs. Mainly love the lyrics for the slow. Compared to the second movie, this is at least more natural than the second but of course can never beat the 1st movie. Natural as in no sudden singing which doesnt fit the story line(the second one has a big ackward part). So go watch it if u hav the free time....watch on DVD....

When i was watching this movie...somehow it got me to think and reminds me of how i used to be. Seriously, it reminds me when i finish my secondary school years and i was like thinking...'shit after SPM need to go coll and dunno wat to study...', and during that time i hate to study...which is practically y i ended up working for 1 year before studying again. And i believe everyone of us has and will go thru that stage, where at that point so many things will be pulling us in every direction and all we need to do is choose which to follow. And coming to the point of choosing which is difficult cause 1) we either dunno or not sure we want, 2) everything at that time looks interesting or gives us something we want and 3) we dunno which will really bring us to wat we wan in our future.

Many times i see people choose wat they think that is wat they wan...then ended up somewhere in between saying this is not wat they wan to do and hate it. The solution?? when they are rich they just change course(how convenient is it, isn't it??) but of course there is those unfortunate ones no choice continue study wat they study and go thru life n career that they dun like it, of course there is always the case of dropping out. For me, i decided with wat i'm studying though i somehow regret a little, knowing my capability of studying and the difficulty of the subject i'm taking, but yet i somehow learn to enjoy the challenge, though no motivation just the thought that i need to go thru and finish it. And going thru these challenge is part of growing in life. Well there is other stuff i thought but then i shall leave it for now.

Family...

family family family....wat does it comes to ur mind when this word comes to ur mind?? The irritating siblings?? the unreasonable parent?? the wierd member of the family?? or ur future child/ husband/ wife?? So wat is family?? that u got to really ask urself about it who is ur family.

To me, family is the people that matters to me who i cared(though at times i dun show it at times, not because i dun wan to is just that i feel i dun need to show 24/7 or mayb i just dunno wat to say) and in this family though i have dislikes about it but they are still my family, besides they are not perfect, non of us are. And thru time i learn to respect them not coz they are always rite...but rather they are family and each of us needs a certain level of respect at least that is my opinion. No matter how wrong they can be and u dun get to say a damn thing...they are still family and somehow forgiveness is needed to be in place. Where is the logic in it??...dun ask me i'm not the expert in this but yet this is how most of the time we do. We always get all hot headed over the matter when we know we are rite and they are wrong but somehow we still can talk to each other after some time....i mean if it were frens...when arguments comes and both fail to win the other side we somehow reject the other as frens. Of course there are those cases where frenship still exist after it.

And talking about family...i believe somehow everyone will sure thing of having thier own family at least in some point in ur life u will. And when comes to this i bet most of us will think, i will not do this, this, this, this, that, that like wat my father/mother/bro/sis did to me, believing that u can do better than them in ur own family. Well the truth is i think that is possible, it is possible to be better than how u were brought up by ur family. At the same time i also will say that how we were brought up will also be the influence on how we gonna bring up our child. And with this it bring me to think how am i gonna teach my child when i have one next time. Am i gonna punish them for every mistake like i had mine??(seriously i had that in mind and is not a pleasent thing to think of) Will my child be as stubborn as me?? Well i guess i just need to leave it in God's hands for everything to be well eh?! =P

So readers....wat does family means to u?? who they are?? wat u gonna do about it?? go figure it urself=P

Results...

Sigh..just got my results...though is better than wat i've expected but then still doesnt look good...expected to fail 2 but failed 1...better but still horrible...arghh...dunno how to tell parents somemore...when i was back in Msia at least send an email dun c thier faces and listen to the nagging face to face is not bad...now id diff...staying under the same roof...arghhh...this is my second fail in tertiary studies....though i fail alot in my primary n secondary skool years but that doesnt matter...no matter wat u still go on to the next year...but in coll/uni...diff...no matter wat still need to pass that sub....arghhhh...

Flooded...

Just so many things in my mind, so many uncertainties, and so many things i dun wan to do. y does this have to happen??y when i should be worrying about something and yet i'm worried about another?? Y do i need to feel this way??i dun like it this way...is already hard to not be myself here and yet with these things it just makes it worst...go away...i just wish when things just seem so care free will last longer at times but it will never happen...if only i know...

Thank you....

Ok..for the last few post i've been showing pics of places i have been to..so this post is to thank them for bringing me along=) i call them ML family..haha...coz of their name...from rite uncle, couz sis, aunt, couz bro. Had a nice time with u guys..though i know only Mel u will read this(u could let them know if u wan to)....THANKS FOR THE GREAT TRIP=)

To Hitomi...

On the road trip...to the destinations..is very long..each about 4 hours..nothing to do so snap some shots of the sky....i know u like to take pics of the sky so here is some for u!1..hope u like it...=)

Dreamz...

Is a good thing to have trip to go to, but then when wierd dreams comes and spoils the mood for the rest of the trip is not such a good thing...2 nites in a row i had a disturbing...ok maybe not disturbing but rather something that make me furious when i dreamt it...but worried when i was awake. I was worried about how is things going on and so forth but it just ruin the rest of the trip that i had...and for that i had to somehow try to enjoy the trip though it is bothering me...till now it stills bothers me and is not that i dun wan to find out but i dun think i will ever find it out without offending....even with great understanding it somehow will offend even it is a little...sigh....i somehow just wished i never dream of it and dun wan to dream of it...but then again it might be a sign to something is really happening...but when there is such a furious dream i dun think i wan to know...i dun wan to get all hot headed over it as i dun think i have the rite to be furious over it and yet i know i will...

Coast...

Ok...the next few pics...are the beaches that i manage to take...because was sitting in a bus and didnt get down to the beach so these are the few nice ones i got to show...it runs from Rose Bay till Coogee Beach that is like 7 stops for the bus...

Sydney...

Ok after Canberra...we then headed to Sydney. Sat on the hop on- hop off bus. They called it Sydney Explorer and Bondi Explorer. Mainly one is around the city while the other is around the coast where all the beaches is...

So the first stop is Opera House...from there the Sydney Harbour Bridge also can be seen.

The Harbour Bridge...

The Opera House...

The this is the Sydney Tower...

Ok so that was mainly 3 pics of the city..the rest not so nice...hahaha...wait..saving some for next post...the beaches...Then the next day headed to QVB aka Queen Victoria Building, is a shopping mall with all sorts of retail in there...And at the top of the ceiling, there is...

This clock here and...

This clock here....well this both clocks it seems suppose to hav something on as in like movement of some doll or mini statues every hour...unfortunately only the top clock work on that day...

Then the Christmas decoration...see this tree dun think is small..is kinda huge this is taken from the 3 floor...

Well mainly in Sydney just explore some place..

Albury and Canberra...

Ok after the Puffing Billy trip...as in few days later...2 days i think...wait..is the next day..haha...beging the journey from Melbourne to Albury then to Canberra..

For an information center in Albury this is something huge...

there is nothing much in Albury...then stayed a nite there...then headed for Canberra the next day....and for those who dunno....Canberra is the capital of Australia....i bet many of u dont know about this...well dont be ashame to admit this..i dunno about it too..haha=P

So this is where we stayed for the nite at Canberra, it is super nice in there, two floors, 3 rooms which in total can sleep to 8 people, and 2 toilets, with mini kitchen and dining place...

The next day headed to the War Memorial in Canberra and Parliament before start journey for Sydney....

So first stop War Memorial....

Opposite of the Memorial far far away is the Parliament House...see the wierd antenna like sticking out of the sky?!...that is the Parliament House...

So from the front of the memorial this is how it looks like...and in case u r wondering who is the girl there...that is me couz - Mel....hehe

And this is the view from inside of the memorial....see the white spot in the middle there....that is the Parliament House again...hahaha...

So the next part needs ur imagination for a while..haha...imagine the memorial is a trall room of 4 walls....

So this is how the ceiling looks like...the pictue is not as nice as the real thing...so go visit if u have a chance...

So this 4 pillars is wat u'll see first when u enter...

And at 4 corners there is these pics on it...i manage to post 3 somehow the other one can upload...

Then at 3 sides of the walls you'll these window paints....

There is another piece to this memorial..i'm not posting it...hehe...just make sure u all go visit it if u hav a chance to figure wat is it=P

Besides that the Memorial also has an exhibition about the wars that the Australian army has joined in....and there...

I find my new ride...kakakka=P

Then next stop is the Parliament House...

Before leaving Canberra...we headed for Nandos for lunch...

After that....then starts the journey to Sydney!!